The Wanderer Pt. 5: The War of Stigma

From out of nowhere, the shelter is surrounded by barbarous crowd. They felt threaten by us so they started the war. They said they want to right the wrong but the war they were fighting for is far from human logic. Contrary to popular believe, the humane value is raped bit by bit.

Pride, one of the most deadliest command which can turn the highest form of human ethic to the lowest of its kind, yet become the favourite food for the soul and been supplied to the army of ignorant. To defend the pride, they construct words as weapon of massive destruction to exterminate their filthy enemy according to them.

No matter how powerful they were. No matter how fierce they are. No matter how hard they try. They always forget the idea of gifted people are trained to be a fighter before they can even remember. The modules that gifted people applied is far more ferocious so they can evades all the javelin words, counter the hard-stoned cerebration or even shield themselves from delinquent act.

So the war of stigma they called upon us is a type of war that we have already prepared from the very beginning. But how do we retaliate such attack? No we don't. Fighting fire with fire is not our style. They set us with flames, we put off the fire. They throw us acids, we purify ourselves. Until they burn themselves and waving white flag. But it takes forever for this to happened.

Just put your rain suits on, unfurl your umbrella or stay at your shelter. The rain is coming.

The Wanderer Pt. 4: Divided We Still Prevail

'Life is awaiting death' is the theme for the gifted people and dying alone is so heartbreaking and is one of the wish that gifted people are not dying to get. That is why wanderer is wandering to find another wanderer to wander together. But in this world, there are two types of people; the ones who do, and the ones who do not. The polarity of do's and do not's can be deceiving. Before we combine like the magnet, we must be sure it does not repel us. Or else, everything that we have built, tumbling down.

Since our minds interconnected, we saw different paths with many possibilities. Its like a story that had never been told and never will be and its all naiveness fault. It clouded the mind with selfish thought. But we look at a different light that never been bothered by this devilish perspectives. So the mind unlocks new trails.

The Tree of Life's branch approved the theory of possibilities. The life provides many routes to follow but one can have only one route. To rephrase, our path is undeniably different with the others. So do the gifted people with its kind. Whichever road we, the gifted people take, it will bring us to our leaf, the ultimate desire of life before the leaves fall off the tree.

As for now, like in war, we put many strategies to win the game. Outnumbered and pessimist about the win but we as the gifted ones, will always survive in every obstacles they put in our path until we reach our leaves.

"Im attractive", kata Resume.

Setelah berangan kerja dekat PERHILITAN, tiba-tiba datang lagi 1 interview. Position Life Science Consultant. Bak kata Shila, gajinya besar. Besarla jika nak dibandingkan dengan PERHILITAN. Tapi apa yang menyedihkan, interview pada 7 Feb 10 pagi tapi aku tau aku ada interview pada 7 Feb 5.30 petang. Lol.

Tapi kalau kerja tu dekat tempat mengarut, bermakna jauh, atau dekat sekali pun, aku akan stick dengan PERHILITAN atas alasan biar aku ada lesen memandu dulu baru aku cari kerja dekat jauh nun di sana.

2nd interview.

Hey beruk, harini nak makan lauk vege? Hai pokok ceri, nak makan laddu?

Hak Haiwan dan Tumbuhan

Alhamdulillah, surat layang telah dilayangkan dan telah mendarat dekat rumah aku. Surat berkaitan dengan hak-hak haiwan dan tumbuhan. Ye, mereka juga ada hak untuk bersuara cuma frekuensi yang digunakan untuk bersuara adalah tidak mencapai piawai pendengaran manusia atau saluran yang mereka guna untuk bersuara adalah salah.

Kerja dekat PERHILITAN atau nama penuhnya Jabatan Perlindungan Hidupan Liar dan Taman Negara atau bahasa dunia, Department of Wildlife and National Parks. Kerja apa? Aku tak kerja lagi sebab start 13 februari. Tapi kerja bahagian admin mungkin susun-susun fail atau shred kertas tak guna. Eh sorry, kena embrace taman negara bermakna kena selamatkan pokok daripada ditebang dan dijadikan kertas maka mesin shredder adalah barang elektronik yang patut dibenci.

Dari segi tempat kerja, alhamdulillah hanya 2 hingga 3 minit perjalanan dari rumah bermakna tiada pengangkutan, tiada rumah sewa, dan tiada masalah mencari makanan halal. Gaji bersih betul-betul bersih.

In terms of gaji, kelayakan SPM sahaja tapi tak peduli sebab pengalaman lagi mahal daripada gaji yang akan dibayar. Tapi telah dimuktamadkan bahawa aku akan sambung bayar kereta wira abang aku untuk setahun setengah dan wira itu adalah hak milik aku. You read right, i am about to own a car.

Belum kerja dah kira negative moolah. KWSP + kereta + bagi parents + buang duit kat tingkap + lap peluh guna duit kertas = it costs me fortune. Kalau dah tolak benda penting, tinggal berapa puluh ribu je. Bermakna, sorry Mataap, tak dapat ikut kau pergi UK duduk rumah Tarmizi. Niat nak travel masa muda-muda kena postpone. Harap tak kena Alzheimer masa tua nanti.

Alhamdulillah, dah nak kerja dah aku setelah hampir 5 bulan termenung fikir pasal kerja. Oh tapi kerja dekat PERHILITAN tak la permanent sebab dah nama pun contract. Bila-bila masa boleh kena buang. Lagi pun masih berharap dekat HUKM. Kalau tak dapat, harap-harap aku dapat diserap dan bekerja dengan pangkat 41.

Bake Cake

1st of february, 1st ever cake aku bake.

Tiada masalah dicatatkan untuk membuat kek kerana semua bahan dicampak ke dalam mixer dan ikut instruction. Masalah yang timbul adalah untuk membuat whipped cream. Okay itu sangat azab.

More that 30 minutes kot aku guna mixer pukul whipping cream yang sepatutnya jadi sabun tapi tak jadi jugak. Tengok youtube pasal buat whipped cream tapi still tak jadi. Tak apa sebab 1st timer, lagi pun cuma trial je untuk buat kek Rudy. So kesalahan adalah dibenarkan.

Kek kedua aku buat 2nd of february dan aku rasa aku dah boleh nak masak kek. Sebab aku ingat instruction buat kek la kot. Lol. Tapi whipped cream masih macam anjing. Tapi better la berbanding 1st trial. Cuma aku tak pasti memang nak buat whipped cream amek masa atau perlukan whipping cream yang banyak untuk kembang jadi buih atau perlukan gula yang banyak untuk naikkan volume dia. Atau teknik aku salah? Ada teknik ke?

Nak upload gambar kek malas pulak.

Aku akan bake another cake dalam masa 1 bulan lebih. Cake orang putih punya cuma minus alkohol. Serious tak sabar nak bukak bakeri.

Im Taking Back My Life

After 30 minutes or so of decision-making, the tribe has spoken. Facebook, its time for you to go.

I have wasted more than 80% of my day wandering on facebook page for the past 3 years. I have abused my energy by pressing F5 all the time. I kept ignoring my talents. I fed my lousy character. I have built an empire of stupidity. I created an uncontrollable monster. And now, im leaving it all behind.

Harap-harap aku tak akan kembali menjenguk ke dunia itu. Sorry Mark Zuckerberg sebab tak masukkan duit dalam akaun kau lagi.

Cutting The String

Dengan melayari media sosial, aku rasa hampir keseluruhan hidup aku mati, tak bermakna, dan menjadikan aku loser. Facebook sahaja sudah cukup memakan kegembiraan aku tapi bagaimana la kalau aku terjerumus dalam kancah tweeter, instagram, pinterest atau apa-apa la yang internet ni offer? Serius jadi makhluk tak siap. Adik aku dah deactivate facebook dekat beberapa bulan. Akmal dah terminate dah dekat setahun. Hafiz dah terminate lagi lama. Tapi kenapa tidak aku?

Aku log in facebook hanya untuk main game sahaja lepas tu refresh page over and over again. Aku tak stalk, aku tak like page, aku tak komen dekat wall pelik-pelik, aku tak peduli pasal benda yang orang share. So kenapa aku kena ada akaun facebook?

Aku idamkan kehidupan adventurous. Aku nak panjat gunung, aku nak kayak kat sungai deras, aku nak berkhemah dalam hutan, campfire dekat tepi laut, nak selam dalam kubang babi, nak bungee jump, nak skydiving, nak kaya. Aku tak nak klik-klik mouse sambil bela lemak perut.

Seriously aku tengah dalam consideration untuk terminate akaun facebook aku for good as long as aku ada whatsapp yang aku boleh mesej secara percuma.

Leaving this boring coded world.