Shit Happens

Indeed. I don’t really hope you bought every single word what I said but shits do happen. Shit happens whether you like it or not. And totally will blow off anything that had been planned.

You might think that im giving you excuses but you don’t know what I have been through lately. Beside the hardship to entertain my soul; maximise the neighbour’s wifi capacity, I have to fight to keep myself alive and do whatever it takes to hide everything about me from everyone. With a little bit of drama in the family makes it a little bit harder for me but interesting in some ways.

Excuses are giving out from time to time and that’s how I operate my life. The orchestra is mine and let me handle it in my way. You audience will not like my plotting and it’s up to you to leave my hall or stay with me to the very end of my show. 

Avenged Sevenfold Live In Malaysia. Really?

2 hari memikirkan benda nih. Siyes semalam aku xleh tdo sebab a7x live in malaysia. How cool is that? Akhirnya doa dimakbulkan. You know what? Its like a dream come true. Tapi betul ke a7x nak dtg sini? Tak marah ke sesetengah pihak? Maklumlah kulit penuh dengan seni. Pada aku, biarlah dorang nak bertatu bagai sebab aku taksub ngan lagu je bukan attitude dorang. Muzik okay! MUZIK!!!!

Am still in the middle of research right now. Just hoping betul la rumour nih. Dah xterkira berapa tahun membesar ngan lagu dorang. Yes, aku dah ready nak bakar duit ptptn aku xkesah la berapa pon sebab dah lama berazam nak terbang ke US sebab nak g konsert a7x tapi xkeje lg. Nak buat camner kan? Ni la peluang aku nak g tengok dorang live. Sila paham!

Apa yang aku jumpa:

"Californian rock outfit Avenged Sevenfold will perform in Malaysia this April, their first visit to the region since 2008. The band had released their fifth studio record titled Nightmare in July 2010. Concert details as follows:

Date: 29th April 2012 (Sunday)
Venue: Stadium Merdeka, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
Tickets: TBA

Filed under: concerts, malaysia, tours, venues
Tags: avenged sevenfold, kuala lumpur, stadium merdeka, tune talk
Posted by SJ on Thursday, 26th Jan 2012 @ 3:12pm"

Kat a7x punya official website aku xjumpe pape. Xpe, keep on searching. Sape2 tolong buat sembahyang hajat.

Adapting New Me

Since xboleh stay kolej during semester break, xperlu fikir pasal thesis. And this is a good thing cuz boleh lari kejap daripada benda2 ilmiah.

What happen to my RM200 baucer buku? Dah redeem 2 novel titled The Sixth Man ngan xingat tajuk sebab xbaca lagi. Beli hari sabtu 20 Jan, exactly 1 week ago tapi baru baca 20 chapter. Total 86 chapter kot. 1 minggu baru 120+ page. Duhhh! Macam budak sekolah rendah je. Nak buat camner aku dilahirkan bukan berhobikan membaca so 120 page dlm 1 minggu its quite an achievement.

So, 1 minggu ni penuh dengan dota bersama adikku yang quite pro. Ada map imba sumpah best gila sebab imba. Imba stands for imbalance. 1v1 pon dah best, kalau 5v5? Fak! Where to find badass player like me? I miss my dota buddies. Lame xfight betul2. Fuck that! Map ai skrg is good enough for me. Senang kalah, susah menang. Best la tu kan? Thanks kat mereka yang buat map tu.

Minggu ni jugak minggu mencuri2 wifi. 1 hari boleh dapat online at most 2 hours. So dapat la main Castleville kejap. Tolong la pakai pakej unlimited. Anda xrugi, saya xrugi. Win-win situation right? 1 lagi harapan aku, tolong jangan tutup wifi anda sebab kesian kat pengguna wifi lain. Please.

Lately, my mom is not very well. So aku kena jadi househusband. Nasib baik cuti, kalau xcuti, memang aku banyak skip kelas. Oh next semester, legend mengatakan bahawa aku akan bawak motor. Harap2 legend tu betul.

Its 10:21pm, before i manage to hit the Publish button, the connection lost. Curse you wifi owner!

10:24pm, its back. Thanks wifi owner! Buat suspen je. Ok i wanna hit the Publish button now before the owner switch off the wifi and shut his eyes. Out.

You're Interrupting My Calculations

Quote yg dipetik daripada dota. Rasa macam nak kira pointer sem 5 la.

1. PENGENALAN SAINS TAUHIDIK

Kuiz xde. Final exam xde. Assignment ada. Field work ada tapi xg. Ok paling busuk B+.

2. MAKMAL INSTRUMENTASI NUKLEAR

Lab ada, gile ko xde lab. Lab report hantar. Nisbah report lengkap xlengkap 75:25. Kualiti report C. Final exam aku xtau ada ke x. Aku YDP xguna! Sepatutnya tanya la awal2. But mcm bese aku ada personal reason. Harap2 mmg xde kertas soalan. Paling busuk B+ jugak. Harapan wajib la A. Xpenah lab dpt grade lain. Please A.

3. LATIHAN ILMIAH I

Exam memang xde la. Proposal hantar. Abstrak hantar. Pembentangan proposal buat. Bab 1,2,3 hantar cuma xlengkap. Paling busuk A-. Nak A la jugak.

4. WORKPLACE COMMUNICATION I

Subjek #4 xde exam. Attendence almost penuh, 2 hari xdtg. Evaluation 1, menang coklat so, so markah ok kot. Evaluation 2 gimik jatuhkan pokok kaktus sebagai kek semasa berlakon jadi chef, rasanya ada additional marks, evaluation 3 mesyuarat rasa aku xde la gagap sgt. Paling busuk B. A- ok la kot.

5. UNDANG-UNDANG NUKLEAR

Markah apa tah aku xtau. 6+5+9+11.5+13=44.5/60. Tu carry mark la. So boleh kot dpt A. Paling busuk A-. I will miss u Dr. Salawati.

6. RADIOEKOLOGI

Senang compared to sume subjek fizik. Markah xingat la. Yang ingat 15/20 untuk kuiz. Paling haram pon C+. Target B+. Mustahil dapat A+.

7. FIZIK NUKLEAR LANJUTAN

Markah midsem 28/40. Markah assignment? Markah attendence xtau ada ke x walopon attendence xpernah amek. Selepas dikira2 markah final exam time exam berlangsung 7/40. Soalan 1a ngan lukis entry-exit channel je konfiden, paling hancur pon 40, D kot. Gred sentap: C atau Fail. Kalau C memang la terkejut, kalau fail, memang la terkejut gak. Xnak repeat!

8. ELEKTRONIK NUKLEAR

Masa baru masuk kelas, En Aznan cakap kalau xramai, senang la nak bagi gred. Paling busuk pon B. Lepas tu Prof Suhaimi dah boleh mengajar. Dulu cuti sakit. Dia ajar perlahan sebab dia sakit lagi kot. Pastu aku miss 2 kelas terakhir beliau, automatik hilang 5 markah attendence. Final azab walopon soalan aku pernah baca dalam "Bab 6" dan "Bab 7" buku apa tah. AKU XDE! Sampai hati xfotostet untuk aku. Suka kau classmates! Xtau gred apa dapat final ni harap2 D la.

9. FIZIK REAKTOR

1st time markah midsem xdiketahui sebab Dr. Khoo xpernah xtunjuk markah midsem. Assignment hantar. Kehadiran kelas Dr. Khoo ok rasanya. Final hancur sebab aku pelajar baru kelas ketua program. Paling busuk D jugak. Gred sentap: C atau Fail lagi skali. Elektronik kot. Lagi best bela ikan emas.

CALCULATIONS:

Pengenalan Sains Tauhidik B+, 3.33x3unit=6.66

Makmal Instrumentasi Nuklear B+, 3.33x2unit=6.66

Latihan Ilmiah I A-, 3.67x2unit=7.34

Workplace Communication I B, 3.00x2=6.00

Undang-Undang Nuklear A-, 3.67x3unit=11.01

Radioekologi C+, 2.33x2unit=2.66

Fizik Nuklear Lanjutan D, 1.00x2unit=2.00

Elektronik Nuklear D, 1.00x2unit=2.00

Fizik Reaktor D, 1.00x2unit=2.00

TOTAL=46.33

TOTAL UNIT=20

POINTER=2.32

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Nak sedapkan hati, "ni kan gred paling busuk?". Harap aku dapat markah gred lain. Takutnya pointer jatuh lagi. Bile nak dapat 3?

Cepat la grad!!!

The Curse of Physics

1st year belajar Elektrik Magnet. Susah. Tahu pasal phasor diagram je. Alhamdulillah lulus. Tu je 1 soalan aku jawab.
2nd year belajar Fizik Atom. Lagi susah. Tahu pasal 2l+1 je. Alhamdulillah lulus.
2nd year belajar Fizik Nuklear. Tinggi sikit daripada lagi susah. Tahu pasal parity je. Alhamdulillah lulus.
2nd year belajar Kuantum Mekanik. Bertambah susah. Tahu angular momentum hydrogen atom sikit je. Alhamdulillah lulus.
3rd year belajar Fizik Nuklear Lanjutan. (susah)^2. XTAU APA2. PAST YEAR ADA TAPI XDE IDEA.

Inilah kali pertama aku rasa aku hanya mampu tulis nombor matriks dan hantar kertas soalan dan jawapan. Tapi kena tunggu 15 minit dulu la. Light is all around me but im alone in the dark. Yes ada 2 set past year questions tapi memang aku xtau buat apa dengan soalan tu. Aku xnak grad 2013. Tolonglah.

Dah la sakit kat badan aku xhilang2 dengan gigi berdenyut2 dah masuk 3 hari. Ya Allah, bagi la aku D untuk subjek ni.

Armageddon 2012

Dah 21 tahun hidup tapi aku selalu berdoa mati cepat. Tapi aku kena berbakti dekat parents dulu. Macam mana pon, aku tetap nak mati cepat. Sejarah-sejarah hitam lepas memang aku tak dapat maafkan. Aku tak nak cipta sejarah hitam lagi. Mati la cepat.

I kept questioning the God why im the one always been tested? Dari satu masalah tambah lagi masalah lepas tu datang lagi masalah. Banyak kali jugak fikir nak bunuh diri tapi sia2 la agama dapat A2 lepas tu belajar sains mentauhidkan tuhan lepas tu bunuh diri.

I just wish nak mati cepat. If 2012 will be the last year of human history, let it be, and i feel damn happy about it. Mana meteor? Mana tsunami? Mana earthquake?